Mass

I went to early morning mass. It is cold today, and a little rainy. Many people turned out for mass, and there were school kids.

As I arrived a few minutes early, I sat in the back and just told God all of the stuff I’m sorry for:

• Being Difficult – Causes harm to me and my relationship with God
• Being Disrespectful- Sometimes I don’t even realise it (arrogance).
• Not participating in mass more-Anxiety-But today, I participated a lot.
• Having a bad attitude.
• Being ungrateful for God’s gifts in my life.
• Not waiting for God’s timing.
• Choosing to do wrong because I was hurt that God had not answered my prayers.

I could feel the tears starting, and I desperately didn’t want to cry at this mass too. So, I wiped them away and just focused on the beauty and people around me.

On Relationships & My Conversion

I don’t know how to share this experience so I will try sharing what I learned:

I learned that, if there is someone out there for me, he will want me to leave my old life behind and grow in my conversion.

Yesterday, I was feeling pretty hopeless about ever meeting anyone. And, still, I am prepared to remain single if that is how things go.

Concluding Thoughts

Thank you for sharing in this little moment. I hope your day is full of little moments of hope.