Slept in this morning until about 0520. Went to sleep after yesterdays’s blog post. Left Dr. Strange playing and went into OdinSleep, as my daughters call when I sleep very hard in recovery.

This morning, I made Dazbog coffee, only I put hazelnut creamer in it. Dazbog espresso bean roast is better black. I usually use the creamer for the Great Value medium roast that I have. But, since I have remaining coffee in the beaker (as I call my pour over container) I’ll drink that part black. My other favourite coffee bean is Starbucks Verona.

Yesterday, I wrote about beauty and aging and how I’m losing my hair. It’s really bad. I’m thinking to cut it short to make this shedding go easier. Not sure what is causing it. Unsure if it will grow back. Had a little panic about all of it this morning when I saw it all down the back of my black sweater and when I look in the mirror, I can pull out the dangling pieces. I’m trying not to cut my hair because the girls want me to grow it out. I mean, I could shave it and then just see what regrows, but my kids would feel bad if I did that.

You’re probably wondering about the title of the post. In December 2024, right before Christmas, I was excelling and living like I had things all figured out, and then I had an aura. “Your Life is About to Change.”

What followed was a succession of events that felt punitive and ugly.

But this morning, as I’m recovering from my coma sleep, I feel like I’m entering a new season. One that isn’t punitive or ugly.

If you are southern, the word “ugly” has many meanings–something not good, or is offensive to the senses.

This morning, I need to do go to an appointment to have my car tag renewed. I was pulled over for that, and it helped set off this mad season (a mix of stressors contributed). Then, I got a second citation for being parked on the street where I live. That’s when I really lost my temper. But, it is all my fault, really. I was avoiding getting my emissions tested. I drive a newer Fiat but wasn’t sure if it would pass emissions as I haven’t done any real work on it in a long while. In the end, it passed, for which I’m grateful.

Other than that, I’m going to make some kind of food that isn’t a concoction. And I’m going to read and rest when needed. I’m thinking to do a yoga video for my workout. I don’t know if I can do a challenging workout with this much dopamine blocked in my brain. Writing this is challenging enough.

The song playing right now is U2s “Walk On”, and it always feels so good. I’m ready to leave the last season behind and embrace the new one ahead.

Thank you for reading, and I wish for you to experience new seasons.

U2 Walk On

And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage that you can bring
And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind
And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong
Walk on, walk on
What you got they can't steal it
No, they can't even feel it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight
You're packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom
Walk on, walk on
What you've got they can't deny it
Can't sell it, or buy it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight
And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on
walk on
Home, hard to know what it is if you've never had one
Home, I can't say where it is but I know I'm going home
That's where the hurt is
And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on
Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you steal
All this you feel
All that you reason
All that you care (It's only time)
And I'll never fill up all my mind
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress up
And all that you scheme
All you create
All that you wreck
All that you hate