I don’t know what was causing my exhaustion since Friday at noon, but it seems to have improved considerably with some rest. Shockingly, I woke up this morning feeling like a spring chicken! A maintenance guy at our apartment complex once told me that it wasn’t good for me to sleep on the couch because I’m no longer a spring chicken. Haha.

Woke up at 0400 and tried to get Amazon to deliver my yellow MacBook Neo faster by checking the tracking status a gazillion times. It’s still at the warehouse. But, it should arrive by this evening, I hope! I have a wonderful refurbished iMac M1 with 16 GB of RAM in yellow. It’s still a great machine and I can create journals and books on it. It also handles video and photo editing well. I just need a laptop to work (write/research) away from home a few days a week. Because, I don’t get out very much, I feel overstimulated when I do go out, so I’m hoping that by working a few days a week at the library, I can get outside more and recalibrate my nervous system.

Took a much-needed shower. Trust me. I needed one. I was so gross. Even clipped all my nails, caught up on shaving, and I even deep cleaned and conditioned my hair. I feel so good. And I can feel my feelings, and I don’t feel sick. I’m grateful that whatever it was ran its course quickly.

I thought about going to Easter mass, but I think I want to spend time with my family and focus on getting some stuff done that I didn’t get done since Friday. I need to do a little research for my book on maternal psychosis, and I need to make some jambalaya. I love Easter mass but I think I want to keep today simple.

For this evening, I bought 7 tickets to see Project Hail Mary at the cinema with my daughters, my daughter’s fiancé’s sister and grandma, and I decided to check dad out of the memory care and have him go with us. I’m hoping he will be ok with sitting there in the theatre until late. Sometimes he can get a little agitated if he can’t move around a lot, but I think he desperately wants a break from the memory care so he probably won’t mind. We’ll have some jambalaya before the movie. Decided to celebrate my up-coming birthday early because my family always celebrated it on Easter when I was a kid. Looking forward to spending time with family and enjoying a good movie.

Taking less Prozac, as my doctor suggested, seems to have helped with the anhedonia, or emotional blunting. I can feel my feelings this morning, and I feel happy. I don’t feel euphoric or manic, but I feel grateful to have feelings and to be feeling better.

Well, it is still early here at 0720 and I need to get some work done before my daughter wakes up.

Thank you for following, and I wish you and your loved ones a very blessed and happy Easter!