Ok. So, I didn’t listen to my doctor’s advice when she told me to take 80 mg of Prozac one night and the next night take 40 mg to average out to 60 mg until my 20 mg capsules arrive in the mail; I only have 40 mg capsules. My loved ones were disturbed by the anhedonia (loss of emotions, low motivation-flat) so I thought I’d speed things along by dropping the Prozac to 40 mg a few nights since it was decided that the dose was probably too high and causing emotional blunting.

Yesterday, I totally spammed a friend with my emotional craziness, and I felt really bad about it. Impulse control is something I need to work on. Probably, my emotional lability was caused by the shift in Prozac dosage-an incoming flood of emotions, coupled with a stressor that I won’t talk about here.

That’s the thing about mood disorders. Everything feels so immediate, in the moment. But really, I just overwhelmed someone I care about. Then the guilt arrives and the feeling like I should isolate myself for forever so I don’t overwhelm people with my craziness.

This is why it is a good idea to listen to your doctor and not make changes to the treatment plan without discussing it with them first.

Got some sleep and woke up feeling much more in control of my emotions after taking the recommended dose of Prozac. Hoping today I will be productive and that I will practice new skills for when I feel impulsive.

I used ChatGPT for the first time in a while. I stopped using it because I felt like it agreed with me too much, and sometimes I need more analysis and challenge. After asking it for analysis, the chatbot suggested that I wait 20 minutes after having an impulsive feeling to overshare. I like that. And the next suggestion was to limit my message to 3 lines. I think it caught on that I can ramble. I like these suggestions and will try them out. I probably won’t text very much as I can already tell you that 20 minutes later, that impulsive feeling will have faded and I’ll be grateful I didn’t burden others with my mood shifts instead of feeling guilt for causing stress.

I did have to correct the chatbot about my dosage schedule; it didn’t pick up on my mistake. So, with AI, it is always good to be critical and think about the suggestions it offers. Taking breaks from it and getting rest when needed is essential. It is not helpful to keep a chat going, or a conversation in person going, when one is tired or overly emotional to the point of not being able to communicate clearly.

Well, I’m going to post my workout plan for the next 75 days later in the day. I’m doing a modified 75 Day Hard. I need a challenge to focus on, and I think pushing myself to be accountable and physically active will help get me back on track.

Thanks for reading and following. Don’t forget to check back later for my 75 Day Hard plan. It may give you ideas on how to modify yours if you want to undertake the challenge.