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Rebounding
I haven’t been blogging because my depression worsened and I was dealing with real event OCD. When I have goals and then go through a mental episode, I feel overwhelmed when it comes to getting back on track. So, for the past few days, I’ve been doing little chunks of productive things instead of trying…
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Depression. Getting Back to Life.
I have been dealing with some depression. Depression doesn’t care if you have goals or a schedule. It barges into your existence and demands your attention for a time. Because of my PTSD, I don’t like to be away from home very much. But today, I traveled to a nearby town with my daughters. We…
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Today’s Thoughts About Discipline, Habits, & Routines
Discipline, Habits & Routines This morning, I read about how there are three types of discipline. Structural, reactive, and expansive. Ideally, all three are needed to achieve goals. I think I do need to work on some structural aspects of my day. When I was working, I had alarms set for all sorts of things,…
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Thoughts on My Active Recovery
I’m trying to blog regularly, but I feel like some health issues have knocked me off track in reading. I’m behind on the books that I started and hope to get back to reading today—I think I can read at least 10 pages. As a personal trainer, I am redesigning my exercise program as I’m…
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The Body Keeps the Score
I read the book, The Body Keeps the Score, several years ago and did not really believe in the idea that the body stores pain from past trauma. But now I do. One year ago, I had a traumatic emotional experience. Instead of dealing with it, I internalised it just as I had internalised earlier…
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Productivity During the Freeze
Productivity & Weather Productivity This morning, I woke up and was determined not to watch YouTube videos for two uninterrupted hours. I love YouTube. Never really watched online videos until recently, and now I spend most of the day watching some kind of content on my television YouTube app. I especially enjoy videos about other…
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Time to Think & Site Update
Time to Think, Get Well & Row After writing the blog post a week ago on working and burnout, I took time offline to think about what comes next in my life and focus on getting well. As, I am almost a month out from my flu/pneumonia, I’m coughing less and feel like my lungs…
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Overcoming Burnout: A Personal Journey
This morning, I watched a video on YouTube about why people no longer want to work. I want to work. I like working. In my last job, I was the worst performer on my team and rose to be in the top 3 on my team consistently. Looking back on that achievement, I don’t feel…
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Balancing My Mental Health & Fitness, Quite Literally, in One Day
Today, I did my first workout, other than walking, since getting the flu and perhaps some pneumonia. Mobility is something I want to improve because I once could do pilates and yoga with smooth transitions. Now that I’m heavier and almost 48 years old, I’ve noticed I’m not as agile as I once was. To…
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Rejection & Self-Respect
Today, I’m listening to a stoicism video on YouTube about how to use moments of rejection as learning experiences—by encouraging our own self-respect and self-worth. Before dawn, I set an intention for the day on my Insight Timer app. Usually, I write long and winding intentions. This morning, there was a suggested intention. It read,…
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